Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Anyways, i have been like feeling tortured all day because last night i didn't talk to Mister Amazing Guy. And this morning when he texted me he asked me one question and then was like "OK thanks bye"
It has made me feel like crap all day! Did i do something wrong? I mean it's not like i could scare him away, we already goof around saying we love each other and stuff. I mean we were planning on going out within the next week or so. I just don't get why everything is different today...
Hmmm.... well i guess he is wanting to talk to me, he just texted me =]. It was just a simple hi but i guess that's better then nothing right? Hopefully tonight we can get things straightened out.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid, that's probably it.
I really like him though and its hard not to wonder what did i do for you not wanting to talk to me? you know what i mean?
well.... what do you guys think i should do? Forget about him? Or try to figure this out and see if we end up getting together in the end?
Ugh i need help with this... I'm sooooo confused! Please help me!!
Love Forever: BeautifulDisaster
Listening To: Caught up in you by Cassie Thomson
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
haha, that would basically be nothing, except for the usual drama drama drama!
im not involved in to much drama, i make sure i stay out of it, if i get dragged into it i always speak my mind and get right back out of it... i dont see the point. i mean honestly what is the point?
Anyways, first reason there was drama today-
1. boys, unfortunately most of the drama happens because of that
2. sports, i mean seriously sports? why the heck would you get tht crap started on a team?
and last but not least number
3. pregnancy, weird topic maybe to some of you, but definitely not at my school.
Okay, the whole number 1 thing sorta goes along with this.... I am absolutely horrible at picking guys. =] i know thats not really a good thing and i shouldnt be smiling about it, but there is more to the story, so listen up. =P
This summer i got into a bad relationship with this guy.. ugh he was my life, but the thing is he was sweet at first and then started calling me names and started putting me down.. so whatever i broke it off, but the thing was i really loved him, i still do! but after that i dated this awesome guy (talking to him now) but distance got in the way since neither one of us was able to drive yet. so we had to break it off. then i had another bf, totally annoying! never ever ever gonna be back with him i mean just ugh!! anyways that leads up to the recent ex... which apparently was also a bad choice.. so read on ;)
So the whole boy drama thingy, it got started because my ex freaking boyfriend who was totally obsessive i mean seriously having to read my text messages? and getting mad at me when im texting my mom about our plans for after school? I mean seriously what a jerk! Anyways, I'm talking to this other guy and everything, he is amazing... and we are totally goofy with each other. Well Ex bf got all mad and everything because he wants to get back together and i totally dont! i mean would you guys really wanna get back with someone like that? Well i certainly dont! But yeah, so that started a bunch of crap and people got mad at me, since he is on the football team and a varsity starter and everything, you'd be lucky to go out with him.. blah blah blah. well im over him and he cant take it basically lol =]
i know thts kind of rude but its the truth.
sports sports sports... if you dont play a sport at our school your basically a nobody. i mean seriously! if you do one sport your fine, or even if you do like a sport that our school doesnt do, like archery or something your still fine. And you know how i play like all the sports and everything, well i was thinking about not doing basketball this year to build my strenghth up because of my ankles and dance, singing, and acting classes. oh and modeling =]
Anyways, i totally got my head bit off by like a thousand of people just because i wanted to take a year off. i mean ugh how retarded right?
here at my lovely school there is at least 3 girls pregnant a year, i know tht is probably like nothing compared to bigger school but our school is like less then a hundred students including middle school with the high school.
Back to the topic, there is this girl that whenever her sister gets pregnant she has to go and have sex to get pregnant, mind you i believe she is only 14 too!
well she like announced it to our class that she was trying to get pregnant and everything, and then after class got all over me about spreading rumors that she is pregnant... which i totally didnt and i didnt even know she was until she told the entire class.. i mean who does that? OH btw she really isnt pregnant.
Anyways, that basically sums up my day, i know things arent really that interesting right now, but i promise you all that they will get more interesting as time goes on. i mean thhis is my first day blogging, im still trying to get used to it =]
So if yall wanna know anything ask.. and ill blog about it =]
Love Forever: BeautifulDisaster
Listening To: Our Song by Taylor Swift
What i wanted to do today on my first blog is just to tell everyone about me. Just so ya'll can get to know me, especially before all of the crazy stuff gets started. =p
- My name is going unsaid for awhile, just for some privacy.
- I'm absolutely in love with all sports (except for maybe this one that i dont remember the name of)
- My age is going unsaid also
- I write poems and essays and songs for the fun of it
- My family is amazing.... i love them to death
- My animals are absolutely crazy
- I'm definitely a dork =] but i love being one
- I usually like a guy then change who i like within a week or two if i dont feel the fire or spark between us. ( That just doesnt work for me if there isnt a spark)
- My grades have always been a perfect 4.0
- I have many many many friends, who i love to death!! They are amazing, and i know they would be there for me no mater what
- Favorite color: Purple!!
- Favorite Book(s): House of Night Series by P.C. And Kristin Cast
- Favorite Song: Fireflies by Owl City
- Favorite Band/Artist: Justin Bieber or Bullet For My Valentine
- Favorite name for a boy: Jessie
- Favorite name for a girl: Penelope
My life can get real crazy at times, with school and sports and what-not. My mood isnt very predictable, unless im talking to this amazing guy =] then im always goofy and talkative.
Oh thats another thing... I talk constantly, just a warning.
Im in love with italian food btw.... i dont know why.. just am
But i guess i better head out for now.. a new update will be posted shorty =]
Love Forever and Always: BeautifulDisaster
Listening To: Love Me By Justin Bieber